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December 28, 2010

Im in LOVE


November 5, 2010


Why i couldn't forget the past? I'm wondering why. You're the only one I wish I could forget. I'm hoping, praying day by day that I can forget what happened during the past. Really do. Its not about me and you, its about the drama we've created before. And you don't even understand the real situation is?

You hurt me and you put tears on my face. Still, you keep on blaming me and hate me. I know. I know you told the others bad things about me. Go on, I'll pray the best for you because one day you'll get things back on you just like what you did to me. You've ruined my life. YES, you did. You make everything falls out of place. Gosh, Its like i didn't know you anymore.

All this time I'm waiting, hoping that you would come around. I've given you chances every time we're in a fight and all you do is let me down.

But not this time. I'll forgive you for the things you've done eventhough its killing me. I'm asking you to leave so that I'll have a normal life like before. No pain, no tears, just happiness. That's all I ask from you. Its not a big deal.
You can say that you're sorry but i won't believe you this time. Because every good time we had, will turn into a fight. So there's no more use in trying. You and I know it will still be the same.

So just keep the memories of you and me in your heart. I'll keep it too. All the sweet, fun, happiness memories we had is the greatest memories that ever happened in my life. You know I love you but I'm sorry, I won't risk my life for you anymore.

Have a good life. I know you'll take care of yourself :)
Do takecare 'her'..

kisses ;*

hek :'(

I dont know why im feeling down at the moment

That's it

It shows everything alaq..!!

October 21, 2010

i miss you :'(

cupcakes :'(

i miss this..!!


The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and challenged your ever view. The ones where you found yourself to be a better person because of who you were when he was around. The ones that made you wake up with a smile on your face no matter how corny it was. The ones that made everything right when it was wrong. the ones that caused you physical pain to leave because leaving meant losing a part of yourself.

The greatest relationships are the ones you’ll always remember not because of their length, but because of who you were with. The ones where the memories make you want to laugh when you’re crying. The ones that make you believe that god exists, because no one else could have created someone so amazing. The ones that cause you to change for the better, even if you don’t realize it. the ones where you know you’re being honest with yourself, so much it hurts.

The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy.

The greatest relationships are the ones that changed your life. The ones that made you rethink your future because you knew it’d be better with him. The ones where you felt like your forever had finally appeared. The ones that made you question the ending. The ones that told you to push through the problems because eventually it would be better again. The ones where you broke your heart and his for his good, even when you couldn’t explain without breaking a rule.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you care more about his happiness then you do about your own. The ones where you do what you do for his future, even if it means wrecking your present. The ones where you tell yourself to walk in the opposite direction, because you know there are just some things you can’t do. The ones when you cry not because it’s over, but because you know you lost not only him, but your best friend too.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll thank him for being a part of your life, no matter how short. The ones where you’ll never forget him because he helped shape your view on love. The ones where you’ll always be there for him, whether or not he’ll accept that. The ones where he put up with your crap when he didn’t have to. The ones where your last tribute to him was doing something he never thought you’d do - and loving it.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll always love him, even when he’s forgotten all about you. The ones where you’re changed forever because of him. The ones that you will always smile about because while they were flawed, they were still amazing. The ones where you fought what you knew was going to happen because you couldn’t quite come to terms with losing him. the ones that remind you love lost is better than never having loved at all

sticky note

"Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened."

October 9, 2010

hey its a secret *shhhhsss

I hope the timing is right.

The feelings i feel, is it wrong for me to feel this way?
I dont know.

Will you put your hands around me and make me feel calm. Thats all i ask.
I know they're easy words to say but i mean it more than ever.

You can hold my hands if you want to.
But this is a warning, once you hold my hands, i will never let go.


I want you to stay close and dont go.

kisses :*

hey its a secret *shhhhsss

I hope the timing is right.

The feelings i feel, is it wrong for me to feel this way?
I dont know.

Will you put your hands around me and make me feel calm. Thats all i ask.
I know they're easy words to say but i mean it more than ever.

You can hold my hands if you want to.
But this is a warning, once you hold my hands, i will never let go.


I want you to stay close and dont go.
kisses :*

Thank you :)

Thank you for the sweetest gift anyone ever give to me.I love you still and sincerly missing you, MUBARAQ ALIAS. You make me the happiest person alive.Thanks again for that.

For the rest of my life :)

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
And theres a couple words I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together eternally
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
And theres a couple word I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart

August 13, 2010

ohh,dearest blogger..its been a long time i havent update youuuuu..
im really sorry...nowadays very busy with assignment..haihhh fucking tired weh..

this is my routine in MUADZAM SHAH.!!!

July 8, 2010

UNIten life -hye people :)

me and azureen

DB1-01-04 :)

June 4, 2010

my merry go round :)

bubu, i misses you..!!!

(hodohnya picture bila rotate)

youth 2010 :))))

Parkour Malaysia Team

cool right :))

best people in the world ..!!

stage leader a.k.a sister :)

my volunteer <3>

youth '10 was really awesome..sumpah best..!!

May 12, 2010

you'll come back when they call you,so no need to say GOODBYE.!!

I'd like to be a kite. There would be someone to play with me on a breezy day, so that I can fly while that someone keeps me grounded, holding onto me, someone who never wants to let me go. And one day, when I feel adventurous, I'll get caught by the tempting delicious tips of wind and fly far far away. When the wind stops to rest, I will float down onto earth, lost, sad and alone. And I'll miss this someone so much so, that I would like the wind to take me back, take it all back. Or maybe this someone will see me shining in the sky, and I'll just be a memory.

It hasn't been a great week.


Lately, I've been annoyed with pretty much everyone..No, scratch that everyone..Some people la. .And I think it's probably just hormones and whatnot.. Someone thinks that everyone feels like this once in a while.. People have limitations on how much they can handle.. Some people have a low tolerance for ignorance and annoyance.....

I’m not going to talk with the person or people about this... Enough is enough. .Lazy to talk about this, I want to avoid conflict. .I just ignore the people.

Forgive and Forget.
Life goes on.

May 8, 2010

i had enough.!!

To whom it may concern,,

For you i gave my heart and turned my back againts the worl cause you were my boy..i done took all i can take but you leave me no options...i can't deny how much I LOVE YOU,but my mind said she hates you..!! I done gave up everything I had to..As hard as it is,Im afraid I gotta say its over..I'm losing my mind,cant figure out who's wrong or right.. I know its you I love and thats the reason you are here now.You claim you hate who I was..Im not afraid to say i got needs but the only time you here for me when the bottels popping and everything is sweet..But im tired of dreaming in my room spending long nights trying to figure out whats is in the hell in my heart I aint do right..I HAD ENOUGH..


May 5, 2010

owh finally :)

Alaaa..Aida nk diploma perakaunan tak dapat..lain pulak yg dpt..heeee..nk buat foundation in accounting but UiTM xde pun..haihhhhh...suddenly baca email dpt buat foundation in accounting at UNITEN muadzam,pahang..shitttt bagi la jauh lagi..Alaq dpt UNITAR..tp papa tak kasi sama dgn Alaq..padahal dah dpt sama course papa..sume saja nk bgi Aida dgn Alaq jauh kn..but its okay..I nk study kn b..should be okay kn if i pegi pahang..?? I dah promise kt i kn kita smpi bila2..i xcari org lain kt sana..promise..!! :0


ape yg i nk bawa kt pahang tu..haihhhh

1.handphone (itu harus)
3.psp ( tp takut hilang)
4.cadar bantal
5.bantal busuk ( nnt tak boleh tido)
6.baju kurung
7.make up
12.bakul baju



March 12, 2010


Disappointed yet thankful. Alhamdulillah :) Who'd have thought..thank you teachers..i've done my very best..atleast my result is better than yours..!! take a note..

AND PEOPLE..aida syafinaz lulus her addmath paper..its a very tough paper i've done..fuck addmath..and yet i hate SEJARAH.. i thought i may failed in sejarah paper..bcoz i didnt studies sejarah at all..but i got 'b' for sejarah..amazing :))


March 10, 2010

3 words,8 letters and im yours OR i'll just walk away

3 words and 8 letters.
that's what i need as declaration.
relationship does not happen when u just know that i love u and u love me.
u have to declare it.

i've been there when there were all the sweet memories but it all end up with no declaration.
yes,i've been there and not just once.
the funny thing is,it's like me and him had broken up even when we dont have an official relationship.
and what hurts the most is,what me and him had was real.we were like a couple but he don't have the guts to declare it.

so,i've learn my lessons.
it's either u say that 3 words,8 letters and declare it or i'll just walk away.
i'm tired of waiting for a guy who dont even have the guts to say and declare that he love or like me.

March 9, 2010

love unspoken

People always think that the most painful thing is losing the one you love. But the truth is, losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much and forgetting that you're special too, is equally painful.

My life is a series

- love affair -

Time leapt by..Year by year..First,a 1 years,Then a 2nd years..

I gave him 2nd chance..but i dont think its a 2nd chance..?? its thousand chance..but yet he never appreciate..making the hardest decision which felt "like cutting off my hand" it just wasn't mean to be..so i think its over..its over between us..stop saying that you love me..just do whatever you want..you love her more than you love me..you have told me..!! so yes..just go away from my life dude..you are wasting my time..i cant be someone perfect..I CANT..!! Im really sorry..and please dont you ever call me and stop bother me..please dude..i cant handle this fucking situation anymore..i just want my family and friends in my life..please understand me..you are such a fucking jerk..!! Im not that desperate..i hope u change your thoughts about me..I love you with all my heart.Try to be happy when you think of me.

If i can stop one heart from breaking.I shall not live in vain..

SHMILY,,hugged and kissed

March 5, 2010

Trip to BANDUNG :)

kakak fika im coming.. :)


March 4, 2010


In 2009

() stayed single for the whole year
(x) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
() celebrated Halloween
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else’s heart
(x) had a stalker
() went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) had a good relationship with someone
() someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
(x) done something you’ve regretted
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe
(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand
(x) went to a sleepover
() went camping
(x) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
() laughed till you peed in your pants
() visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
() cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you

In 2009 I…

(x) broke a promise
(x) lied
(x) went behind your parents back
(x) cried over a broken heart
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret
(x) pretended to be happy
() slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution
(x) met someone who changed your life
(x) met one of your idols
(x) changed your outlook on life
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
(x) left the country
( ) almost died
() given up something important to you
() lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
(x) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
(x) stayed up til sunrise
(x) cried over the silliest thing
(x) was never home on weekends
() got into a car accident
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you
() had someone close to you die
(x) had a high cell phone bill
(x) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
() went to the beach with your best friend
(x) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick
(x) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people

Eternal Love

The tender words we said to one another are stored in the secret heart of heaven:
One day like rain they will fall and spread,and our mystery will grow green over the word.


March 3, 2010

perfect score.!!

baby u're my sunny sky

"Baby whenever you’re near me, it’s love that I feel."

i need LOVE from someone who love me sincerely..butt not from YOU..!!!

"When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you, & it doesn’t mean that they are bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over."

i miss my bestfriend..sorry if i did hurt you darling :((

i miss you so badly FATIN ALIA

No matter how

"No matter how hard you try to get over someone you’ll still have some sort of feeling for them, remembering the way things used to be and how they are now."

Things I wasn't able to tell you

"The truth is hard. The truth is awkward and very often the truth hurts. I mean, people think they want the truth. But do they really?
The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can’t help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much."

A Prayer for Us

Dear God,

Please make of our relationship a great and holy adventure.
May our joining be a sacred space.
May the two of us find rest here,
a haven for our souls.

Remove from us any temptation to judge one another or to direct one another.
We surrender to You our conflicts and our burdens.
We know You are our Answer and rock.
Helps us to not forget.

Brings us together in heart and mind as well as body.
Remove from us the temptation to criticize or be cruel.
May we not be tempted by fantasies and projections,
but guide us in the ways of holiness.
Save us from darkness..

May this relationship be a burst of light.
May it be a fount of love and wisdom for us,
for our family,for our community,for our world.

May this bond be a channel for Your love and healing,
a vehicle of Your grace and power.
As lesson come and challenges grow,
let us not be tempted to farsake each other.
Let us always remember that in each other we have
the most beautiful woman,the most beautiful man,
the strongest one,the sacres one in whose arms we
are repaired..

May we remain young in this relationship.
May we grow wise in this relationship.
Brings us what You would have us be.

Thank you ,dear God,
You who are the cement between us.
Thank You for this love...


Love and Intimacy

Love is a force more formidable than any other.
It is invisible..it cannot be seen or measured..
yet is powerful enough to transform you in a moment,
and offer you more joy than any material possession ever could..

March 2, 2010

Understanding each other

There is nothing you can do,achieve or buy that will outshine the peace,joy and happiness of being comunication with the partner you love.

now IM trying,
love you

Im just a blur :(

"No one ever gets tired of loving… But everyone gets tired of waiting, assuming, hearing promises, saying sorry and all the hurting."

I'll see you in My Dream

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life.

The word is "love"

March 1, 2010

One last GOOD-BYE

Across the years
I will walk with you
in deep,green forests,
on shores of sand,
and when our time
on earth is through
in heaven too
you will have

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