Leelou Blogs

December 11, 2011

Ombak Rindu :(

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia

Untuk terima ku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup

Kerna ku tak mampu

Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku
Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosaku

Hanya ingat Kamu kala dukaku

Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka

Pintu hatinya ‘tuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku

Untuk dirinya yang jauh dariku

Agar dia tidak kesepian

Selalu rasa ada cinta agung
Hujan bawa air

mengalir membasuh lukaku

Agar dia tahu ku tersiksa

Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku
Hanya mampu berserah

Moga cahaya tiba nanti
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia

Untuk terimaku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup

Kerna ku tak mampu

Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

November 13, 2011

August 2, 2011

Maybe it`s the way you grab my hand and hold it or the way you kiss me. Or maybe it`s the way you let me put my arms around you. Maybe it`s the way you look at me and your smile just makes me melt. Maybe it`s the way we can talk on the phone for hours about absolutely nothing but I still feel like I just had the best conversation of my whole life. Maybe it`s the way that I want to break down and cry when I think about how you hold me up on a pedestal. Maybe that`s it. That makes me want you so much.
Every girl wants a Prince Charming, and while he may be nice and all, I`m thinking that Id rather have the guy who`s gonna call at me 4 in the morning just to say hi. Or someone who will stop by my house after just hanging up the phone because he wants to see how I`m really doing, because I said I was fine, but we both know that I`m not. Or the guy who`ll stay home on a Saturday night with me because I`m sick. That guy, that one guy, he may not be Prince Charming to anyone else but he`d be my hero. My knight in shining armor. Anyone who`d rather stay home on a Saturday night and hold my hair while I puke. That`s a hero.

July 12, 2011

Im so thankful that i can finally end my misery. I lowered my ego, increased my bravery and called u. Probably the best decision ive made after so many months. I am truly sorry for whatever has happend between us. We've been friends for so long and Id do anything to get back what we had during high school. But i understand, things have changed. U and i have both changed and there is no way that we can ever get that kind of friendship again. Perhaps we can, slowly. But no, im not hoping for it. I have so many questions for you. So many uncertainties but who's in a rush? Im sure my questions will be answered soon. This is just the first step for us. Im glad to hear that U wanted to actually meet me to settle things. Made me feel im not the only one who wants to get things cleared. Alhamdulillah, Thank you Allah for finally letting me break this chains that bind me. Syukur, Alhamdulillah.

June 29, 2011

i dont deserve to be happy

So i thought after ive settled things with him, I'll finally be able to break free. But no, girls like me just dont deserve to be happy. All my 19 years of life Ive been doing everything i can to make people happy. To satisfy everyone even if I'm not happy. But 2 days ago i made a decision for my own self. I did it to save myself and i thought i did. I guess I was wrong. Some people dont understand the importance of what i did. Some dont understand why is it so hard for me to move on. But please understand that i dont have a heart of a boy. Its not easy for me to move on. It takes time. It takes support. And for me, it takes forgiveness. I know i may have lost someone dear to me. But im sorry, its time for me to become selfish. I dont regret my actions. Im sorry if u feel like ive betrayed you but i hope in time, ull understand why i did it.
Things are better to keep alone sometimes. I'm just another ordinary girl who are still learning two important matters, life and love. I can't run from pain, pain comes to me. Happiness just come next.

BE STRONG Aida Syafinaz :(

May 17, 2011

GOD :(

ya Allah..
ampunkan dosa besar aku..!!
kau sempurnakan lah hidup aku..
kau terangkan lah jalan hidup aku..
kau beri kekuatan dalam diriku..

to Mikhayl

its been 2 weeks you left me..

to be honest i really miss you..

since you're gone,i felt lonely..

no worries sayang..i'll pray for you..and please dont cry..

i will always remember you..

please do takecare k..

im really sorry for what i've done..i did this for my future..

And tell you what,you make me realised that Allah is always be with us..

i cant stop crying and think about you..


please tggu ***** kt sana k..

I want to be with you..

May 4, 2011

Thank you

i love you

Siti Salwa ,

Mubaraq ,

Aidil Syazwani ,

Nana Jafry



thanks for the advice and always be with me..

April 14, 2011

im really worried :'(

its end of this month..and yes everything settle..but only god know what is on my mind.. PEOPLE PLEASE FORGIVE ME..I LOVE YOU <3

April 13, 2011

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday aunty MARIA

April 4, 2011

i hate you.. i hate you.. i hate you.. :(



March 19, 2011

March 3, 2011

February 27, 2011

last day*

For my last day in Kl..
as usual *darah* :)
Good Job girl..and please make him in love with you and not me..its enough..
well im happy to be with him in 2 days..but its a horror nightmare i've ever had..
Thanks for make me happy. *pineapple :(

February 18, 2011

I believe in KARMA

act'ly i've wrote something just now,but i think maybe it could make someone hurt..
so i decide to delete all and just saying that i am single now :(

as what people said 'if dah takda jodoh tak boleh nk buat apa'
instead of that if ada jodoh tak kemana..i trust both..
i would like to say THANK YOU for what you've done to me and to 'her' not a*li** but **** and *** for those infomati0n..maybe its difficult to you to give an answer..but i swear to god if i could turn back time,i promise that i wont do this mistake again..i have many people around me,who thinks I'm better than this..from what you thought about me..
For me,to forgive someone is not easy as what people thought..!

Well,i definitely have to say sorry to you.Even though everyone knows its not my fault..


February 17, 2011

University of Liverpool

i really hope that papa will send me there.!
far far away from everyone.that is what i wanted for almost 3 years..
he just got offer from Abu Dhabi..and maybe he will leave us..so i think why dont i continue my degree in Abu Dhabi..??? sounds great..atleast i can takecare of him..haihhh but if he not accept the offer so maybe my dream to studying in University of Livrerpool come true..pray for me..wink**

this is what i want..!!!



Sudah memang sudah
Perjalanan cinta berakhir sudah
Engkau pergi ‘tuk selamanya
‘tuk selamanya

Mungkin ini sudah suratan
Engkau dan diriku tak bisa bersama
Mungkin ini sudah suratan
Sudah suratan

Jangan kau pergi untuk meninggalkan aku
Aku disini dengan sejuta cinta untukmu
Jangan kau pergi untuk melupakan aku
Aku menangis karena hidup tanpamu

Sudah memang sudah
Perjalanan cinta berakhir sudah
Engkau pergi ‘tuk selamanya
‘tuk selamanya

thank you.. *the END*

A nightmare come true. *suddenly

Lately, lots of thing happens. Seriously. I can't barely breath and standing on my own now..

"I cried every night wondering what i did wrong. But i can't find it. I can't even think one. Bcause all i know is I am so nice to you and you took me for granted :("


what about me?

oh yeh she's broken..??
what about me.?
you think im heartless.?
you think that i've no feelings like her?
im a girl.!!
please atleast care about me if you dont love me anymore..!
i know she is the one that you really love and care..but me.?
for almost 3 years, now you trying to tell me that you know her better than me?
what it means.?
i dont understand all this fucking reason that you gave.!!


I'm getting skinny and boney. Everybody keep on telling me that. Its like what i used to wear is getting big for me. Damn!!!
I asked my mum to buy a vitamin specials for gain weight..Just wait and see then. Pray for me to be healthier in the future. Sooner is better! :(

i think this is because I MISS YOU :(

I will never love anyone better than him..No one could ever make me happier than what have he did.Thanks for that and everything else-the end..