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March 12, 2010


Disappointed yet thankful. Alhamdulillah :) Who'd have thought..thank you teachers..i've done my very best..atleast my result is better than yours..!! take a note..

AND PEOPLE..aida syafinaz lulus her addmath paper..its a very tough paper i've done..fuck addmath..and yet i hate SEJARAH.. i thought i may failed in sejarah paper..bcoz i didnt studies sejarah at all..but i got 'b' for sejarah..amazing :))


March 10, 2010

3 words,8 letters and im yours OR i'll just walk away

3 words and 8 letters.
that's what i need as declaration.
relationship does not happen when u just know that i love u and u love me.
u have to declare it.

i've been there when there were all the sweet memories but it all end up with no declaration.
yes,i've been there and not just once.
the funny thing is,it's like me and him had broken up even when we dont have an official relationship.
and what hurts the most is,what me and him had was real.we were like a couple but he don't have the guts to declare it.

so,i've learn my lessons.
it's either u say that 3 words,8 letters and declare it or i'll just walk away.
i'm tired of waiting for a guy who dont even have the guts to say and declare that he love or like me.

March 9, 2010

love unspoken

People always think that the most painful thing is losing the one you love. But the truth is, losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much and forgetting that you're special too, is equally painful.

My life is a series

- love affair -

Time leapt by..Year by year..First,a 1 years,Then a 2nd years..

I gave him 2nd chance..but i dont think its a 2nd chance..?? its thousand chance..but yet he never appreciate..making the hardest decision which felt "like cutting off my hand" it just wasn't mean to be..so i think its over..its over between us..stop saying that you love me..just do whatever you want..you love her more than you love me..you have told me..!! so yes..just go away from my life dude..you are wasting my time..i cant be someone perfect..I CANT..!! Im really sorry..and please dont you ever call me and stop bother me..please dude..i cant handle this fucking situation anymore..i just want my family and friends in my life..please understand me..you are such a fucking jerk..!! Im not that desperate..i hope u change your thoughts about me..I love you with all my heart.Try to be happy when you think of me.

If i can stop one heart from breaking.I shall not live in vain..

SHMILY,,hugged and kissed

March 5, 2010

Trip to BANDUNG :)

kakak fika im coming.. :)


March 4, 2010


In 2009

() stayed single for the whole year
(x) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
() celebrated Halloween
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else’s heart
(x) had a stalker
() went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) had a good relationship with someone
() someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
(x) done something you’ve regretted
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe
(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand
(x) went to a sleepover
() went camping
(x) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
() laughed till you peed in your pants
() visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
() cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you

In 2009 I…

(x) broke a promise
(x) lied
(x) went behind your parents back
(x) cried over a broken heart
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret
(x) pretended to be happy
() slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution
(x) met someone who changed your life
(x) met one of your idols
(x) changed your outlook on life
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
(x) left the country
( ) almost died
() given up something important to you
() lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
(x) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
(x) stayed up til sunrise
(x) cried over the silliest thing
(x) was never home on weekends
() got into a car accident
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you
() had someone close to you die
(x) had a high cell phone bill
(x) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
() went to the beach with your best friend
(x) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick
(x) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people

Eternal Love

The tender words we said to one another are stored in the secret heart of heaven:
One day like rain they will fall and spread,and our mystery will grow green over the word.


March 3, 2010

perfect score.!!

baby u're my sunny sky

"Baby whenever you’re near me, it’s love that I feel."

i need LOVE from someone who love me sincerely..butt not from YOU..!!!

"When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you, & it doesn’t mean that they are bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over."

i miss my bestfriend..sorry if i did hurt you darling :((

i miss you so badly FATIN ALIA

No matter how

"No matter how hard you try to get over someone you’ll still have some sort of feeling for them, remembering the way things used to be and how they are now."

Things I wasn't able to tell you

"The truth is hard. The truth is awkward and very often the truth hurts. I mean, people think they want the truth. But do they really?
The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can’t help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much."

A Prayer for Us

Dear God,

Please make of our relationship a great and holy adventure.
May our joining be a sacred space.
May the two of us find rest here,
a haven for our souls.

Remove from us any temptation to judge one another or to direct one another.
We surrender to You our conflicts and our burdens.
We know You are our Answer and rock.
Helps us to not forget.

Brings us together in heart and mind as well as body.
Remove from us the temptation to criticize or be cruel.
May we not be tempted by fantasies and projections,
but guide us in the ways of holiness.
Save us from darkness..

May this relationship be a burst of light.
May it be a fount of love and wisdom for us,
for our family,for our community,for our world.

May this bond be a channel for Your love and healing,
a vehicle of Your grace and power.
As lesson come and challenges grow,
let us not be tempted to farsake each other.
Let us always remember that in each other we have
the most beautiful woman,the most beautiful man,
the strongest one,the sacres one in whose arms we
are repaired..

May we remain young in this relationship.
May we grow wise in this relationship.
Brings us what You would have us be.

Thank you ,dear God,
You who are the cement between us.
Thank You for this love...


Love and Intimacy

Love is a force more formidable than any other.
It is invisible..it cannot be seen or measured..
yet is powerful enough to transform you in a moment,
and offer you more joy than any material possession ever could..

March 2, 2010

Understanding each other

There is nothing you can do,achieve or buy that will outshine the peace,joy and happiness of being comunication with the partner you love.

now IM trying,
love you

Im just a blur :(

"No one ever gets tired of loving… But everyone gets tired of waiting, assuming, hearing promises, saying sorry and all the hurting."

I'll see you in My Dream

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life.

The word is "love"

March 1, 2010

One last GOOD-BYE

Across the years
I will walk with you
in deep,green forests,
on shores of sand,
and when our time
on earth is through
in heaven too
you will have

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