Ombak Rindu :(

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia

Untuk terima ku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup

Kerna ku tak mampu

Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku
Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosaku

Hanya ingat Kamu kala dukaku

Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka

Pintu hatinya ‘tuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku

Untuk dirinya yang jauh dariku

Agar dia tidak kesepian

Selalu rasa ada cinta agung
Hujan bawa air

mengalir membasuh lukaku

Agar dia tahu ku tersiksa

Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku
Hanya mampu berserah

Moga cahaya tiba nanti
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia

Untuk terimaku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup

Kerna ku tak mampu

Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

thank you

:)

Maybe it`s the way you grab my hand and hold it or the way you kiss me. Or maybe it`s the way you let me put my arms around you. Maybe it`s the way you look at me and your smile just makes me melt. Maybe it`s the way we can talk on the phone for hours about absolutely nothing but I still feel like I just had the best conversation of my whole life. Maybe it`s the way that I want to break down and cry when I think about how you hold me up on a pedestal. Maybe that`s it. That makes me want you so much.

Every girl wants a Prince Charming, and while he may be nice and all, I`m thinking that Id rather have the guy who`s gonna call at me 4 in the morning just to say hi. Or someone who will stop by my house after just hanging up the phone because he wants to see how I`m really doing, because I said I was fine, but we both know that I`m not. Or the guy who`ll stay home on a Saturday night with me because I`m sick. That guy, that one guy, he may not be Prince Charming to anyone else but he`d be my hero. My knight in shining armor. Anyone who`d rather stay home on a Saturday night and hold my hair while I puke. That`s a hero.

Im so thankful that i can finally end my misery. I lowered my ego, increased my bravery and called u. Probably the best decision ive made after so many months. I am truly sorry for whatever has happend between us. We've been friends for so long and Id do anything to get back what we had during high school. But i understand, things have changed. U and i have both changed and there is no way that we can ever get that kind of friendship again. Perhaps we can, slowly. But no, im not hoping for it. I have so many questions for you. So many uncertainties but who's in a rush? Im sure my questions will be answered soon. This is just the first step for us. Im glad to hear that U wanted to actually meet me to settle things. Made me feel im not the only one who wants to get things cleared. Alhamdulillah, Thank you Allah for finally letting me break this chains that bind me. Syukur, Alhamdulillah.

i dont deserve to be happy

So i thought after ive settled things with him, I'll finally be able to break free. But no, girls like me just dont deserve to be happy. All my 19 years of life Ive been doing everything i can to make people happy. To satisfy everyone even if I'm not happy. But 2 days ago i made a decision for my own self. I did it to save myself and i thought i did. I guess I was wrong. Some people dont understand the importance of what i did. Some dont understand why is it so hard for me to move on. But please understand that i dont have a heart of a boy. Its not easy for me to move on. It takes time. It takes support. And for me, it takes forgiveness. I know i may have lost someone dear to me. But im sorry, its time for me to become selfish. I dont regret my actions. Im sorry if u feel like ive betrayed you but i hope in time, ull understand why i did it.

Things are better to keep alone sometimes. I'm just another ordinary girl who are still learning two important matters, life and love. I can't run from pain, pain comes to me. Happiness just come next.

BE STRONG Aida Syafinaz :(